strange week, sad week

Well last Saturday we went to My hubby's company picnic, Allergies got so bad I eneded up with Laryngitis plus stress added to me getting it. Of course I have to get this, feel sick and all right before my concert I have waiting for Tuesday the 5th. Crue Fest... Motley Crue,Sixx A.M., Papa Roach, Trapt and some lame lame band Buckcherry. Well despite my voice and dehydration I still managed to have some left to Rock and roll. I didnt even drink I felt cruddy. My husband wasnt feeling good either. So we(I) still had a great time, great seats too. Now while all of this is happening we had our chinchilla in the vet hospital. She relasped from a previous sickness. About 2 months ago we took her to the vet that specializes with exotic pets. I told them that I think she may have an abcessed toothe becasue of the yellow yuck she has on her fur and paws, not eating, not playing and making noises. Sure enough abcess somewhere. Without taking x-rays. So we did pain and antibiotic treatment for the course. So then we started seeing signs again about her losing weight, no eating, now hardly drinking, we already bought her new type of food, changed her location to less stressful, got a water bowl instead of her bottle, even new toys. This time I had a bad vibe, because we already were told that x-rays and other options were available. We had a followup appt, so we got there and told them she is sick. They said she will have to stay the night she is in pain, dehydrated and underweight. 2nights in there. So had anesthesia she made it through that risk they took x-rays, she was eating on her own some critical care food, and drinking. She was doing good but the x-rays show extensive longterm care and the abcess in the root. We can pull it Just like humans serious but more deadly for these little guys. Rather than every month of anesthesia, x-rays and filing down her bottom tooth below the one getting pulled, monthly $ of 400.00 the other option is to put her to sleep. So August Wednedsay the 6th we had to make a very hard decision. We drove 1hr and 15min, to the vet to look at x-rays and make out decision. My 14dd, 8dd and I played with Kairlona 4yrs (THEY are suppose to live 10-15) LIKE A DOG, I was talking with Kairlona and criying what am I suppose to do? What do you want us to do? She twiched her wiskers and winked her eye, She gave me a sign that I felt was the answer. I stood there holding ehr like a baby cradling her and swaying back and forth. We had said I good by and the Dr came and asked....My 14dd who told me she cant tell them.....Made the Biggest desicion and spoke her words...I think it is best to put her to slepp. The vet said I think so too. We cried and cried and cried. They brough in the paperwork. We has choices to private creamate, creamate they keep, or they put her ou and we take her for burial, We chose that. My DD was wanted to bury her here up on the hill. We had the burial 2 nights ago and they made a stone with craft supplies. I am still in dismay a bit because her cleaned cage with fresh everything is still in my sitting room of the bathroom waiting for her to come home. Now we have to pack things ups. I am still thinking she is going to hop over to the door and ask for a raisin. It is so crazy, no chinchilla will be able to replace her traits she definatly had the Ives Family house traits, stubborn but like to have fun but likes her own space. She listens to what we have to say but like her owns rules. Loves making messes, but likes things cleaned. Right now we are remembering her funny things and looking at pictures. RIP Karilona we love you very much